An appl3 that ran amok
Journey into the unknown abyss

You can love someone and without intending to, hurt them even though your brain tells you not to. Sometimes you can be so sure of your decision that it couldn’t be wrong, only to realise that your action has many consequences and it mostly reflects directly back to yourself. 

You learn that forever is a lie because everything you have in life is on loan and one day, you will have to return it to nothingness. You know how easy it is to ignite the fire, only to be dampen when nothing is left to fuel the fire. You can cling to hope and desire but lose it all to darkness that follows you because the bigger the hope, the bigger the disappointment. 

Goodbyes are never easy, no matter how many times you experienced it. Letting go are the hardest, especially when you’re a fighter but holding on to something that are never meant to be is even harder. We learn that in the journey into the unknown abyss, it isn’t where we will be but what we have learn in the journey. We learn that the journey will always have some difficult paths and there will always be obstacles.

"Good Morning"
“How was your day?”
“Be careful”
“Text me when you get home so I know you’re safe”
“Sweet dreams”
“How are you?”
“I hope you’re feeling better”
“Have a good day today!”
“I miss you”
“Good night”
“Can you come over?”
“Can I come over?”
“Can I see you?”
“Can I call you?”
“You’re beautiful”
“Want something to drink?”
“Watch your step”
“Let’s watch a movie”
“What are you up to?”
“How is your day so far?”
“It will be okay”
“I’m here for you”
“Do you need anything?”
“Are you hungry?”
“I just wanted to hear your voice”
“You just made my day”

You don’t have to hear “I Love You” to know that someone does. Listen carefully. People speak from the heart more often than you think.

Blocklava (via nozu)

Dedication to JR/EH/Женя 

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’ll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would’ve followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I’m still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
Anywhere, I would’ve followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye

Say something, I’m giving up on you
And I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you
Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I’m giving up on you

Say something, I’m giving up on you
Say something

For all of the time that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I hold you tight
And I’m So sorry for… 
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
I’m so sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won’t make my difference tonight
But I’m hoping I’m Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry do can’t turn back time
I’m sorry that I loved you
I’m sorry that I hurt you
I’m so sorry that I loved you
I’m sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I loved you

"Stay" (feat. Mikky Ekko)

All along it was a fever
A cold sweat hot-headed believer
I threw my hands in the air, said, “Show me something,”
He said, “If you dare, come a little closer.”

Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know.

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can’t live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay

It’s not much of a life you’re living
It’s not just something you take–it’s given

Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know.

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can’t live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay.

Ooh, ooh, ooh, the reason I hold on
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ‘cause I need this hole gone
Funny you’re the broken one but I’m the only one who needed saving
'Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving.

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can’t live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay, stay.
I want you to stay, oh.
Every time I think of you I always catch my breath And I’m still standing here and you’re miles away And I’m wondering why you left And there’s a storm that’s raging Through my frozen heart tonight I hear your name in certain circles And it always makes me smile I spend my time thinking about you And it’s almost driving me wild And there’s a heart that’s breaking down this long-distance line tonight I ain’t missing you at all Since you’ve been gone away. I ain’t missing you No matter what I might say. There’s a message in the wire And I’m sending you this signal tonight. You don’t know how desperate I’ve become And it looks like I’m losing this fight. In your world I have no meaning Though I’m trying hard to understand And it’s my heart that’s breaking down this long-distance line tonight. I ain’t missing you at all Since you’ve been gone away. I ain’t missing you No matter what my friends say. And there’s a message that I’m sending out like a telegraph to your soul And if I can’t bridge this distance Stop this heartbreak overload I ain’t missing you at all Since you’ve been gone away No I ain’t missing you no matter what my friends say I ain’t missing you I ain’t missing you I can lie to myself. And there’s a storm that’s raging Through my frozen heart tonight. I ain’t missing you at all Since you’ve been gone away
Every time I think of you 
I always catch my breath 
And I’m still standing here and you’re miles away 
And I’m wondering why you left 

And there’s a storm that’s raging 
Through my frozen heart tonight 
I hear your name in certain circles 
And it always makes me smile 

I spend my time thinking about you 
And it’s almost driving me wild 

And there’s a heart that’s breaking down this long-distance line tonight 
I ain’t missing you at all 
Since you’ve been gone away. 
I ain’t missing you 
No matter what I might say. 

There’s a message in the wire 
And I’m sending you this signal tonight. 
You don’t know how desperate I’ve become 
And it looks like I’m losing this fight. 
In your world I have no meaning 
Though I’m trying hard to understand 

And it’s my heart that’s breaking down this long-distance line tonight. 
I ain’t missing you at all 
Since you’ve been gone away. 
I ain’t missing you 
No matter what my friends say. 

And there’s a message that I’m sending out like a telegraph to your soul 
And if I can’t bridge this distance 
Stop this heartbreak overload 

I ain’t missing you at all 
Since you’ve been gone away 
No I ain’t missing you no matter what my friends say 
I ain’t missing you 
I ain’t missing you 
I can lie to myself. 

And there’s a storm that’s raging 
Through my frozen heart tonight. 
I ain’t missing you at all 
Since you’ve been gone away

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Just feeling it … that’s all

Don’t live with regret so when you look back in your life, you’ll always say “Wow, I did that…!” and not “I wished I had did that”. 


I WISH YOU ENOUGHRecently, I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport as the daughter’s departure had been announced. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said:”I love you and I wish you enough.”The daughter replied, “Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom.” They kissed and the daughter left.The mother walked over to the window where I sat. Standing there, I could see she wanted and needed to cry.I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, “Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?” “Yes, I have,” I replied. “Forgive me for asking but why is this a forever good-bye?”“I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is the next trip back will be for my funeral,” she said.When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, “I wish you enough.” May I ask what that means?” She began to smile. “That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.” She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. “When we said ‘I wish you enough’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them”. Then turning toward me, she shared the following, reciting it from memory,”I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.”She then began to cry and walked away.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person. An hour to appreciate them. A day to love them. And an entire life to forget them.

Don’t live with regret so when you look back in your life, you’ll always say “Wow, I did that…!” and not “I wished I had did that”. 

I WISH YOU ENOUGH


Recently, I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport as the daughter’s departure had been announced. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said:”I love you and I wish you enough.”The daughter replied, “Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom.” They kissed and the daughter left.The mother walked over to the window where I sat. Standing there, I could see she wanted and needed to cry.I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking, “Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?” “Yes, I have,” I replied. “Forgive me for asking but why is this a forever good-bye?”“I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is the next trip back will be for my funeral,” she said.When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, “I wish you enough.” May I ask what that means?” She began to smile. “That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.” She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. “When we said ‘I wish you enough’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them”. Then turning toward me, she shared the following, reciting it from memory,”I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.”She then began to cry and walked away.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person. An hour to appreciate them. A day to love them. And an entire life to forget them.